I wrote this at about 1 A.M. on New Years, but I forgot to post it. So here goes
Another year comes and goes, and here we are ushering in a new one. All I can think about is how much I have been blessed, am blessed, and will be blessed, and how much I want to change this year, how much I want to grow, and do, and tell and.... change.
Since it's 2012, I narrowed myself to, 12 broad scope resolutions. Here they are in random order:
1). I want to seek Christ more than ever this year. Wholeheartedly, nothing held back, seeking and desiring Christ, above all else. This is pretty much the basis of all of my resolutions.
2). I want my prayer life to grow. I find comfort and am pretty consistent in the Word but, I don't pray like I should and want to.
3). I want joy. Joy in the little things, in the big things, in hard times, good times, and every time in the middle. I want to proclaim with my life that Jesus is enough to make me happy and content, with the exclusion of all else if need be.
4). I want to be selfless among my friends. I want to put them first, and I want it to be evident, to the glory of my God. I want to love them like Christ loves them. Like the Father loves them. I want to always be positive about them in front of, and behind their backs, and always be someone that they know will listen.
5). I want to be driven and passionate about the cause of the glory of my Lord. I want to never tire of proclaiming His name and fighting for the day that "every knee will bow and every tongue confess that Jesus is Lord, to the glory of God the Father." Philippians 2
6). I want to be driven academically, to have the desire to learn, and to work hard and use the facilities to learn that God has in me to the best of my ability. And besides just knowledge, I want the wisdom of the Lord to dwell in my heart. But maintaining my 4.0 wouldn't be bad as well. ;)
7). I want to see this nation changed. To see revival sweep the nation, starting in Tulsa, Oklahoma. I want Christians all over the world to be empowered to proclaim their faith with boldness.
8). I want to take the time to relax, enjoy the beautiful things in life and simply, "Be still and know You are God," instead of getting caught up in the dumb little things in life that try to drag my attention away from Him.
9). I want to be grateful; to be constantly in a state of blissful thanksgiving for all God has blessed me with. I really can't comprehend it all, but I want to seek to be a thankful, humble person that realizes and lives in light of the fact that it's only by His grace. It being, everything.
10). I want to live in the light of the cross and do everything with Him and his beautiful gospel at the forefront of my mind.
11). I want to be a truly giving person. No strings attached, no motivations, no thought of it. A humble, loving person that gives out of second nature because that person is more important than what I think I need or deserve. Because I love them, because they were created in the image of my God. I want to give my time, money, skills, labor, and energy, even when I feel like I have nothing left to give. I want to be driven by a greater purpose than my own welfare. I want to be driven by love. I want to give.
12). Twelfth and lastly, I almost wrote, I want God's will for my life to be evident. But actually, I want to have the faith to move forward with faith, even when I can't see His will. Which is way better. But both would be okay. :)
God, this must all be through your might, through the blood of the Lamb, in sanctification by Your grace alone. Mold me, harden me,and use me. I'm a cracked vessel, but You dwell in me. Shine through the cracks. Drive me, motivate me, set me on fire.
I dedicate 2012 to You. Use me.
